God's Working On It!

Yesterday,
She called me... It was a first after such a long time...
Nonetheless, it was very pleasant to know that you're still in her thoughts....

But the call soon went into a downspin,
And instead of being constructive,
It just end up being a little messy...
Last night, she went to a Ladies' Night Bar,
And I went to play basketball, didn't want to think about it...
But still, I would sometimes wonder about her safety and all...

This morning I called her before she left for work,
To see whether we could meet after her work tonight...
All she said was, "See how first, k?"
This usually meant that she'll forget to call,
Or she doesn't feel like meeting up...

Well, actually that's not the end of the whole story...

After that, depression set in...
I cried out to God... Its been a long time since I've done that...
Last time I did that,
Was more than a year ago, just before I met her...
That time I cried out to God when would I find someone...
Today,
I cried out to Him for answers again...
Asking how such a wonderful relationship,
Had degenerated into something totally different.
Asking why had it been allowed to pass...
Asking how can I salvage this,
What does He want me to do?
Does me want me to leave her,
Move on and look for someone new,
Or simply hold on and wait for miracle,
For Him to change her heart?

I thank God for His answer in the most divine manner...
It was then I felt I needed to look for my copy of
"Our Daily Bread"...
But somehow I just couldn't find it...
At that point of time,
I felt crushed, 'cause I thought even God left me...
But just as that thought came in,
A voice spoke out to me and told me to seek harder,
"Ask and ye shall receive, Seek and ye shall find..."
It was then I tried my brother's room,
Lo and behold,
It was next to his bed,
So I took it and read today's passage...
First thing I saw was a name of a girl, "Melissa"...
And when I saw that, I cried, and I couldn't stop...
I cried and cried and cried...
For I know at that point of time I knew God understood my pain...
You see,
"Melissa" (Not my gf's name) was the name of the author's daughter.
I know of her because the author had been writing about her before.
Melissa passed away in a car accident.
This was an entry from a parent that lost his daughter,
And how he tells his readers to praise God in all adversities...
I lost it, 'cause I felt God reaching out to me once again,
This time through someone who has experience
Losing a loved one, in this case a more severe manner...
After that,
I heard God telling me to trust in Him and in His ways.
To trust that what He has blessed me with,
Was not a stone, nor a snake...

⁹“Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? ¹⁰Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? ¹¹If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"
Matthew 7:9-11

And that I needed to let it go,
Submit it completely to Him and let Him work on it...
For if I choose to handle it,
It would only become more complicated...
Just trust in Him to settle the situation.

¹¹ "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ¹⁴ I will be found by you," declares the LORD"
Jeremiah 29:11-14

How true...
When I came to realise He had a plan,
Only did I call upon Him and pray to Him,
And He has done what He has promised,
And He has heard me....

I do not know how things would work out,
But I know its for the better,
Simply because "God's Working On it!"

Think I'll make that my coin-phrase from now on...

Have a blessed day people....