His Faithfulness...

Last night,
I came across something that troubled my spirit,
And I felt a lump in my throat.
It made me feel that
This path that I have chosen seem meaningless,
And question myself over and over again.
One simple word,
A flood of emotions,
But it is the reality of my status now too...
This is reality. Single.
It made me wonder, had she given up?

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;
Perplexed, but not in despair"
2 Corinthians 4:8

Waking up with a broken spirit,
I prayed.
Somehow, a glimmer of hope lived.
I prayed a different prayer this morning.
I told God all my concerns,
And I gave them to Him,
For the burden is too heavy for me to shoulder alone.
All my cares and woes,
I told Him, and asked Him to take care of them for me,
For I am helpless to do anything about it.

"Do not be anxious about anything,
But in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving,
Present your requests to God."
Philippians 4:6

I did.
And a great deal of heaviness
Seemingly was lifted off me.
Though I still feel the weight,
But now it was easier to bear.

"Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior,
Who daily bears our burdens. "
Psalm 68:19 (NIV Version)

"Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits,
Even the God of our salvation"
Psalm 68:19 (King James Version)

Both the versions talk about our burdens
But they point out different perspectives.
And both ring true.
God not only bears our burdens daily,
He blesses us with benefits as well.

Well, I have no news from her or from God,
Its like walking blind backwards for me right now.
But I guess, with God next to me,
I can be assured,
That all things will be good in the end.

Thank you Lord for all the trials,
For I see now that they have brought me
Somewhat closer to your presence.