Good News... Bad News...

Good News...

Few months ago:
1) I couldn't get a confirmation which school I'd be going into.
2) I did not have a concrete plan of action what to do. (School & Char)
3) Stuck in depression.
4) Parents could not get along with each other.
5) Quarrel almost every night.
6) Broke.
7) Jobless.
8) Trying to figure what is God doing.

Now:
1) Will be starting school at SIM next Monday.

2) Know what the course of action is... Kinda...
School - Study in SIM, work my butt off and try for a transfer into SMU.
Char - There's nothing I can do, but trust God.

3) Things are beginning to look up.

4) Parents are now working together. All because of a new baby in the house!!!
Jenna Lim - The name of the lil' cutie, 'cause of her my folks are reliving their past...

5) That is practically non-existent! Geez... What a wonder a lil' baby can do to people!

6) Ain't rich, but suffice to buy me some new clothes, mp3 player and fund my lessons!

7) Found a 2 week job that paid like $1400, but had to work like mad...

8) Realize that He lets you know... No need to figure things out like that.
Chances are His plans are way too complicated to comprehend.

Bad News...

1) Char and myself aren't really talking. Things just went downhill somehow...
2) Funds running low again 'cause of my lessons...
3) In desperate need of another form of transportation!!! Sengkang to Clementi!!!
4) Fund-raising in church is really tough... So many channels to go thru....
5) In need of a tuition job... Hint hint... Maths and English only...
6) Public transport fees just went up AGAIN!!!
7) There's nothing I can do, but trust God.
I think that's like the toughest lesson for me...
He's like saying,"Just Trust ME!"
And I go,"Ok, tapi tapi tapi*..........."

*"Tapi" is Malay for "But"

This morning I said a lil' prayer to God,
Nothing spectacular,
Just to help me get through
Each time I felt helpless and hopeless.
This morning I thought of her again,
And I asked God His grace.
I asked,
"Lord, if you have prepared someone else,
Then help me see Char
Like the way I see those whom I used to have feelings for,
Where the feelings have died.
But Lord, should you have plans otherwise,
Then preserve in me,
A portion of the passion that I have for her,
But only suffice enough to flame once more when the time is right. Amen"

Then I went to church.

This is when the unusual thing happened.
As I was preparing breakfast,
Her mom came to me,
And told me how difficult it is to wake her up
On Sunday mornings to go to church.
I went,"Oh... er yah... "
Next, her mom told me to call her and wake her up...
Bewildered, I said,"Huh? Oh... Okay..."

You see,
Her mom didn't approve of us when we were together,
Nor did she talk to me much.
So this encounter was really unexpected...

I called,
But she didn't pick up.
Didn't think she would even she was awake...
Things between us has gotten really... er...
Silent...

Anyway,
Right now, God kinda piqued my interest,
And now I'm just curious how God is going to unravel this mess,
How this story is going to end...

Those reading this boring blog,
I invite you to see how this all ends.
Hopefully, you can discover God,
As I discover how He is working in my situation...

May God bless your road too...

Past weeks

Now is about 9am in the morning,
Gotta go for my lessons at 12 later...
Think I can slack till about 11 since I'm at Glenn's place (again!)
Can't seem to fall back to sleep,
Too many wandering thoughts lingering around
The big dense thing on me shoulders,
Call my head...
Been back for a week from Indon...
Apparently,
Many things seem to have happened since then...
Changes that seem to make no sense but to me only...
My mom flipped completely
When she found out what I was up to these days...
I kinda "discussed" it with my Dad before I made the choice,
So he's kinda cool about it...
Den again, he's always been the understanding one in the family...
Going to start school finally in July (I think!),
Can't wait!!!
Glad to know that there'll be least one familiar face...
Den again,
We've only met once...
Hopefully, the cohort will not so big...
Less competition...
Den I can at least be in the 2nd upper... haha...
Ok...
So much for now...